New addition to the family....

My cousin Eric had a baby on Sunday at 6:46pm. Eric is one of my closest cousins we are only 11 months apart and grew up together. So this is very exciting to have a new little one around.
Welcome to the world little man!
Blaine Steven Smith
8lbs 14oz
21inches

An era is gone....

The baby era is gone :( and we are very sad!!!

So tuesday my closest friend Julie had a hystrectomy. We have know each other since we were 13 we are practically family and look like sisters. Even in the hospital people asked if we were sisters, silly how we pick friends that look like us. So for her its the end of the baby era. She's sad and so am I, who is suppose to have that kind of surgery at 30, especially the day after your birthday. Its funny right before she went in she begged me to have one also but I had to remind her that one of us had to be able to have a baby. She came back with this hospital is full of smart men and doctors at that so go find a future baby. That's Julie for you always thinking ahead. Well today she begged me to take away her pain. Who wants to see their friend in pain?! I sure as hell don't. I called the nurse, got here juice, sat and read while she slept and laughed while she talked in her sleep.

She eventually came too and I got her up and moving a bit. I fought with the mean nurse that wouldn't listen and demanded to talk with someone else, who fixed the problem. I did tell her she owes me big time..especially after she had me put her belly button ring back in, helped her to the bathroom and rubbed her legs cause she itched so bad. I sat with her while her husband worked so that she was never alone, its like we are doing shifts. He is doing the 8pm to 5am I'm doing the opposite. But that's what friends are for right...she is the one I would and could get it trouble with..but we would do anything for each other. Sometimes friends really are better then family because her family was not there!

Dating in the real world...

SUCKS....
So I went on a date last Tuesday, we went to the movies had fun, thought we got along pretty well but wasn't really looking for the "one". Well at the end of the date I got a hand shake..yep! Not like I wanted a hug or anything but who shakes hands...I have the worst luck with meeting and dating guys I need to find a nice guy who is not afraid of a strong personality. All of you know me and my personality...I'm such a taurus. Oh and the best part of this whole mess was he sent me an email saying "I'm not interested and I need to find someone I can be serious with". Go figure, maybe I want to just be friends....wow guys can be so self centered and dumb!!!!

Anyone know a nice single guy that I can meet?

Stay tune for more dating horror stories because I have a bunch.... Sooo many I could write a book or atleast a blog.

Happy Veteran's Day

Thank you to all the men and women that have given their time and lives for our rights and privilege to have all the wonderful things that living in America affords us.

To the very special Gold Star Mother, I love you very much and honor you today.

In loving memory of
Garland Dale Floyd and all other veterans.

Happy Birthday Julie!!!

I will gladly get "old" with you as long as botox is in our future! Happy 30th birthday my Martini buddy. From here on out we are "30 something" scary....

The Change

Here are the changes!!!

Barrack Obama-is the president elect

Proposition 8-passed with yes vote which means that the state of California will only recognize marriage between a man and a women.(It looks like the governor and a few Congress men are trying to say that the vote is still unconstitutional and will try to overturn it) (tons of people are picketing and church are being vandalized because of prop 8)

Happy Election Day!!!

I voted did you???

In the words of MTV!!!!

ROCK THE VOTE!!!

Despite whether you vote for McCain or Obama or yes or no on propositions...please just have a voice. Too many people have died for our right and honor to vote.

A change is a coming!!!!

So we as a nation and state are on the eve of some great changes. Either way we look at it we will have some first a first African American President or a women Vice President. Both are a change, both stand for change, both will bring great change. They both can either bring this nation to our feet or to our knees.
But I digress, the hate I'm talking about is Prop 8. So I believe in god,I believe in the bible, a marriage should be between a man and woman but how do we discriminate against a whole group of people. How do we tell people that they can't celebrate their love with some kind of union. I guess I'm just upset because I have family and friends that are gay so my vote feels confused. Voting no on this issue goes against my moral views on marriage and family. But voting yes discriminates against a whole group who deserves to be treated equal.
Oh there is a change coming and I'm scared..I hope we as a country and state know what we are doing!

Happy Halloween

Have a safe and fun Halloween. I will be at work waiting for all the drunk hoodlums to come in.

I love purses!!!!!

Especially when its Coach..I got a new purse and matching wallet on Tuesday and I love it. It was such a good deal who could pass it up.

If this 3 inch metal door wasn't here....

I would beat your ass! I can't tell you how old that statement gets. The kids I work with think that the world revolves around them and their lifestyle, thus their gangs. So we have these 2 kids that really don't like each other, well that's an under statment of the century. I think they would kill each other if given the chance. So neither kid gets along with others but one is on his own program so we have to accomadate him, so as he was getting in the shower he walked over to the door of the kid he "hated" and proceed to scream at the kid through the close metal door. Out came all the gang bullshit, the "BK" this and "SK" that, along with "blood for life" (white kid from this town a blood hard to believe) then the "13 for life" crap whatever. With both yelling "tell those staff to open the door and I will show you what's up." They were screaming louder then a toddler throwing a temper tantrum as another officer and I attempted to calm them down the situation. Eventually I was able to get the kid to look at me, make eye contact long enough to get him to listen and then walk away. I guess everyone is super tough when there is 3 inches of solid metal between them. Guys and girls grow up, life does not have 3 inches of metal between you and your enemy in every situation...learn to deal or atleast see each other for who you are differences included.

Thanks for noticing!!!

So I worked my typical 8 hour shift on Saturday. Its a hard one because I usually have very little sleep (4hrs) and well its the weekend and I'm working. However we have a new supervisor and I'm try to make it easy on him, show him I know what I'm doing and that I'm a "team player". So he told me that we had very few core trained staff and with visiting and the programs we just need to sit on the kids (not literally). So to help out my team I worked on all the laundry, set up visits and basically did what was asked, well at the end of my shift I got my reward. The new supervisor came upstairs and said that he really appreciated all that I did and how much I stepped up to help him out. He stated that we work so well as a team on this Saturday afternoon shift, he wished he could get the rest of his week to run as smooth. That felt good especially after being told that I was not a "teamplayer" guess it really is in the eye of the beholder.

Use of Force gone bad!!!!!!

So on Wednesday I had Use of Force, this is a 4 hour training that I typically dread. Someone usually gets hurt and in the long run when the "crap" hits the fan they never really gone down like practiced. Oh well, so Maben and I were partners and it was a small none threatening class of 6 officers. We did this escape from a choke hold, for the record I'm never letting a kid get close enough for that and should it happen its on. So back to this move, you have to use a rocking motion while laying on your back to then wrap your leg around their head and quickly move to a kneeling potion thus striking them many times in the ribs. Okay easy enough, well first wrong move I re-aligned Maben's spine, thus hitting my leg hard enough to give myself one killer bruise. I think I win the Use of Force bruise award, this thing is easily 6-8 inched long and deep black and purple, upper calf to lower thigh. Maybe I will post a picture it gross but pretty amazing that a head did it. That however was not the only war wound Maben was hurt later when she attempted to grab my pepper spray only to lose half her nail, if only that was a deterrent for the kids in the hall. Oh well at least we had fun and no one went to the hospital, right. Wait I never got to ride in an ambulance so maybe that would have been kinda fun.....maybe next time. Just kidding I have to do this again next month pray for me!!!! Please.

You're not a team player...

this is what I was told today. I'm still trying to wrap my head around this, I guess I just don't get it. How can I not be a team player if I help out with other programs, I'm the first to volunteer for something and I work well with others. I guess if you "vent to others" then you're not a team player. Until I master the role of being a team player I will not go anywhere with this department. That's what was said. Interesting! Oh and I need to learn to congratulate people who get promoted, I never read that in the policy but I will try. Just venting here, at least I can vent here and not get "in trouble!"

So I've had a bad week......

Ok maybe more like month, so yesterday I went out and got a pedicure. This is my favorite thing in the whole world. I love to be able to look down at my feet and see my cute toes paint pink with pretty flowers. So this really is my guilty pleasure. Anyone who has ever tried to completely change their sleep schedule will understand why I've had a bad month. Then there's been a lot of movement in the hall that creates tension and drama. I guess I should just be thankful I have a job plus I'm getting use to the graveyard, its actually pretty fun.

Wow.........

So I never wanted this blog to turn into a book review blog. However when I find a good book I think the world should know. So I just finished the most inspiring book ever called "Last Lecture" by Randy Pausch. I am not one for highlighting key phrases in books but I will admit I did in this case. I cried at the beginning and the end of this book, I laughed, I reflected, I was one with the book and I wanted to be one his student. I would give this book 5 stars, it was an amazing journey for me and the author.

I was signature # 1052

So there is a petition that is floating around the adoption community it’s called “Adoption for All: The Fairness for Families Petition”. So after spending a few hours (not really but it felt like it) reading a bill off of my crack berry. Yes this was a bill; the Congress of the United States of America is trying to make it harder for families who have already spent up to 3 years waiting for their Chinese princess or other miracle baby. What since does that make? What kind of politician is attempting to make more money off already suffering and stressed out families? I have a guess but that would let my political view out of the bag. Oh alright maybe some loosey goosey democrat who’s views on the world doesn’t expand further then the piece of paper his speech is written on. Okay off my “soapbox” and back to the issue at hand. So after reading all about how these families should have been grandfathered in under the Hague Law, Congress decided no and now wants all new paperwork (1600A), home studies and more money. Go figure. A huge issue with this is that a large majority of these families are close to their LID date (log in date) with the country of adoption. These new information could take 6 months thus passing all these families, up what is unknown is if the home countries will honor the LID or push them back to the very end of the line. If that happens these families would start over this time behind 25,000 families.
If I believe then it shall be…Congress, honor the Hague Bill and let these families unite, it is already taking too long and too many babies are growing up in orphanages. If you agree, sign the petition let Congress know Family is Family even if it’s built on a dream and a thin red string. http://www.gopetition.com/petitions/adoptions-for-all.html

My childhood dreams!

So I have been thinking alot about my childhood dreams, things that I want to accomplish in my life. I found a diary from when I was 10-12 years old and here is what I found. Some sound silly and some are very serious.
1. I want to be a wife and mother. In that order and I understand that in this day in age this sounds very silly.
2. I want to graduate from college. Yes, I have already done this once but when I was little I wanted to be a lawyer so maybe I should just suck it up and go to law school.
3. I want to REALLY help someone. Go figure.
4. I want to learn to drive really fast. I wonder why I have had 2 major speading tickets.
5. I want to travel the world especially to Europe.
6. I want my family to always be happy and to always get together on Christmas Eve.
7. I'm going to save the world. Wow did I have big dreams.

So what were your childhood dreams?

1 book down millions to go.....

I finished "The 19th Wife" the book was okay but I defiantly would not give it 4 stars. That's what the book reviewer for People gave it. The book had lots of accurate Mormon history with a slight murder mystery aspect. Oh well, sometimes you find a good book and sometimes you find a bad one, too bad I was way excited for this one.