Happy Holiday's

My friends and family,
Merry Christmas Eve, I would like to take this time to wish all of you a happy holiday and Merry Christmas. You are each truly special to me. I am greatful and honored to have you all in my life. I hope you enjoy the holiday with your families and friends.
May peace and blessings be with you and yours,
Sarah

An era is gone....

The baby era is gone :( and we are very sad!!!

So tuesday my closest friend Julie had a hystrectomy. We have know each other since we were 13 we are practically family and look like sisters. Even in the hospital people asked if we were sisters, silly how we pick friends that look like us. So for her its the end of the baby era. She's sad and so am I, who is suppose to have that kind of surgery at 30, especially the day after your birthday. Its funny right before she went in she begged me to have one also but I had to remind her that one of us had to be able to have a baby. She came back with this hospital is full of smart men and doctors at that so go find a future baby. That's Julie for you always thinking ahead. Well today she begged me to take away her pain. Who wants to see their friend in pain?! I sure as hell don't. I called the nurse, got here juice, sat and read while she slept and laughed while she talked in her sleep.

She eventually came too and I got her up and moving a bit. I fought with the mean nurse that wouldn't listen and demanded to talk with someone else, who fixed the problem. I did tell her she owes me big time..especially after she had me put her belly button ring back in, helped her to the bathroom and rubbed her legs cause she itched so bad. I sat with her while her husband worked so that she was never alone, its like we are doing shifts. He is doing the 8pm to 5am I'm doing the opposite. But that's what friends are for right...she is the one I would and could get it trouble with..but we would do anything for each other. Sometimes friends really are better then family because her family was not there!

Happy Birthday Julie!!!

I will gladly get "old" with you as long as botox is in our future! Happy 30th birthday my Martini buddy. From here on out we are "30 something" scary....

Thanks, It was fun.....

I am sad tonight because I have found that my actions and behavior have created an issue for someone I work with. I guess it happens when you work in a place like I do. Its very different from most jobs we don't have a standard lunch break (we eat on the fly), we work standard 12 hour days 2-3 times per week, we argue like brothers and sisters and sometimes we spend more time with the people we work with then our own families. Those of us that are close we share our joys, our sadness, our frustrations and everything in between. But we forget that these people have lives of their own and carry our negative emotions with them. Our work is already so negative with the justice system, the kids, their families and lives that leaving all that at the door is sometimes very hard. When we leave after a 12 hour day we very well could have dealt with 1 fight, 2 suicide suit restraints, school being postponed twice before cancelled at noon, a missing pencil, 10 room changes, 5 bookings, a flooded and food tossed room (potato surprise all over the wall and floor, fun) and million phone calls all while keeping 50 kids and 9 staff safe. And yes all these things have happened in one day. We wonder why its hard to just leave it at the door. We rely on the people we work with we need to know that when the 10-35 (officer needs assistance) call come out that someone will respond. We for the last 6 months have been in the trenches together, I cant tell you how many fights but I know we all survived or how many teacher we have been through (I think a lot). But I do know that we have been safe, that when I headed straight for the fight without calling for back up I know certain people had my back, so thank you. I know that when the fight is really on I can rely on a true unnamed superhero to fly in from somewhere shouting, "stop resisting!" Or despite how much I hate the Disney singing I will miss the loud "white girl Spanish" with all the "gang member Hispanic boys and her always telling me "if there's a fight its all you I'll call 10-35, k". I will miss a certain Asst. Sup and his descriptive vocabulary when describing the bookings. He is creative. Oh don't worry 6 months will fly by at least that's what I am telling myself and no you wont lose a friend. At least I'm keeping 1 person from my days with all of you.

Waiting........

I have some friends that can't have a baby so they are doing an honorable thing and adopting. They are adopting an unwanted baby, a girl baby (6-12mths) that was abandoned at an orphanage. Here is the catch, its more of a catch 22, when they started 22 months ago the standard wait was 12 months now it's unknown. With the Olympics it could add a year or more. I have watched this family yearn for their daughter, probably more then anyone else. This is a child born in China, cared for by unknown people but carried in their hearts since day one even before she was conceived. I have watched this couple and others in very similar situation struggle, see very few joys and many hurts and battles in hopes of one day holding their daughter that was loved and conceived half way around the world. These couples have built their lives on hope, they have created rooms, bought clothing and made other preparations. But now I have seen them pack away those once precious items because its just too hard to deal with. The wait is taking a toll. The wait is too long, it's become a daily struggle however if you ask any of them if they would give up not one of them would and all would do it again. I guess we all have to wait for something, we just have to remember that the wait it tough and not always fun but in the end it is worth it. So we will continue to wait for all the babies, for all of the forever families to be united. This post is dedicated to all of our Chinese Princess especially Alicyn and Zoey. So the waiting continues but friendship will make it easier.....I hope!