Priceless!!!!!!

One set of perfectly normal looking stairs...
One crazy cat who likes to drag crap (towels, slippery rugs and other things to the bottom of the stairs)....
One clumsy Sarah....
Two left feet attached to a very clumsy Sarah....
Falling to the ground after slipping on a towel and slamming my knee on the hard ground...
PRICELESS!!!!

Okay maybe not priceless but it did require a cortizone shot and an x-ray...oh and a phone call to a supervisor...maybe now its priceless!!!!!

Wow it's been awhile....

...and somethings change and others do not.
A baby can change a family, make some of us closer and unite against the evil front. And then at times we find that we are truly weak, stubborn and unwilling to change for any one...even their kids. We find that we are not superhero's and can and do get sick.
The holidays are here and this has created a lot of discord. I guess it has a lot to do with an email that was sent in regards to no overtime during the holidays which prevents no time off. So all of us that requested time off at the beginning of the year...yes January 1st was DENIED!!!! Wow this sucks. I understand we should be grateful that we have a job in this economy but really...oh well. I guess I just have to see my family some other time maybe next Christmas.
The kids attitudes and behaviors still suck...yes they really do. We are trying to re-wire 15 plus years of poor behavior in a short amount of time. These kids lack self esteem, self control and boundaries. They feel the need to make others feel bad because they feel worse themselves. They have been battered, abused and beaten by others thus doing it to others is the only option. And yes the holidays make it one hundred times worse!!!
I still hate games, I really hate guys who play games. I can't seem to find a guy who won't play games. It seems the guys I meet say one thing and do another. I met a nice guy who seemed very nice, humble, wanted all the same thing, said all the right things but then what...I have to do all the work. I don't think so. I should give up dating...maybe a guy who is perfect for me will just fall out of the sky and that will give me the fairytale...story to follow!

A change is a coming!!!!

So we as a nation and state are on the eve of some great changes. Either way we look at it we will have some first a first African American President or a women Vice President. Both are a change, both stand for change, both will bring great change. They both can either bring this nation to our feet or to our knees.
But I digress, the hate I'm talking about is Prop 8. So I believe in god,I believe in the bible, a marriage should be between a man and woman but how do we discriminate against a whole group of people. How do we tell people that they can't celebrate their love with some kind of union. I guess I'm just upset because I have family and friends that are gay so my vote feels confused. Voting no on this issue goes against my moral views on marriage and family. But voting yes discriminates against a whole group who deserves to be treated equal.
Oh there is a change coming and I'm scared..I hope we as a country and state know what we are doing!

So I've had a bad week......

Ok maybe more like month, so yesterday I went out and got a pedicure. This is my favorite thing in the whole world. I love to be able to look down at my feet and see my cute toes paint pink with pretty flowers. So this really is my guilty pleasure. Anyone who has ever tried to completely change their sleep schedule will understand why I've had a bad month. Then there's been a lot of movement in the hall that creates tension and drama. I guess I should just be thankful I have a job plus I'm getting use to the graveyard, its actually pretty fun.

My childhood dreams!

So I have been thinking alot about my childhood dreams, things that I want to accomplish in my life. I found a diary from when I was 10-12 years old and here is what I found. Some sound silly and some are very serious.
1. I want to be a wife and mother. In that order and I understand that in this day in age this sounds very silly.
2. I want to graduate from college. Yes, I have already done this once but when I was little I wanted to be a lawyer so maybe I should just suck it up and go to law school.
3. I want to REALLY help someone. Go figure.
4. I want to learn to drive really fast. I wonder why I have had 2 major speading tickets.
5. I want to travel the world especially to Europe.
6. I want my family to always be happy and to always get together on Christmas Eve.
7. I'm going to save the world. Wow did I have big dreams.

So what were your childhood dreams?

Feeling better

So today I went to church and I forgot how much I missed it. I have not been in awhile because of my last schedule but now I'm back and ready to go. When I started going a lot about 10 months ago it fit into my schedule and then it did not work at all for my schedule so I stopped going for 4 months. I guess a lot has changed in me during that time. When I started going all those months ago I was really dedicated and on my game. I felt like I noticed a difference in my daily life, I was happier and felt like there was meaning and reason to get up each day. Heck my mother the none church goer noticed a difference when I was going and even said, " whatever you are doing there it works for you, just remember who you are!" I did just that I focused on me and my life with god in it. I decided that at this point in my life I needed just this. Well when my schedule change my world came crashing down and I had again to focus on my job and less on me and my relationship with god. So I guess this made me grumpy, frustrated and lacked guidance. All of which I could have received had I been at church and with the people who cared for me. A little back story, I was going to church on my own because this was a different church then my family church. I had however created strong ties to my new church family. Well with this new shift rotation I have received a blessing in its own right, I am now able to go back to church. So today I went and was able to spend time with people who even after 4 months remembered my name and cared that I was back. I walked in a knew that I once again was home, I felt it in the air, it wrapped tight around me holding me close and keeping me safe.
So today after 4 months I finally feel better.....

6 for Sunday

Here are 6 things about me all because it's Sunday....
1.I love to do laundry but HATE to wash my car :)
2.From the age of 8 to 15, I was raised by my mom and her Japanese-American boyfriend. I ate so many weird foods growing up but boy am I good with chopsticks.
3.I have only lived in 2 towns my entire life....Auburn and Grass Valley. Wow right.
4.I can send hours in a books store. I love the way new books smell.
5.Starbucks whip cream makes the roof of my mouth slimy.
6.I have had the same best friend for 28 years and I miss her very much, especially right now.

I have shared mine now what are yours?

I'm coming out......

So this is weird to me, everyone I know has a blog and important life moments to share. My friends laugh at me because i lurk on their blogs and don't have one of my own....so here it goes...I am coming out of the shadow and becoming known. I hope you are happy. I will know be able to comment on your blog and share my thoughts and ideas with you.
So this is my moment, my catilian of sorts however without the ugly dress and long white gloves and really silly dance with feathers (Thanks, Gilmore Girls for that perspective). About me I'm a protector of all, in the words of my friends son, "are you a kid cop...do you put kids in jail?" In the grand vision of things yes I do. I'm single, sometimes by choice (the pickings are slim in this small town) and other times I wish I was married with 3 kids living the fairytale. My adventure in dating has been rough to say the least more on that later, boy do I have great stories. I live with a cat that thinks she is a dog. I love her more then anything. She is my therapist and yes at times my best friend and pillow....my cuddle bunny. I just turned 30 in May and felt like it was a turning point in my life, my 20's sucked so much pain and heartache I was glad to be over them. I learned a lot about myself though and now I love who I am. I can't wait to see what my 30's have to offer.....my view on 30 is "it can't get much worse so bring it on!" But really so far..... so good.
So I hope you all are happy....I have now come out!!!!!