I was signature # 1052

So there is a petition that is floating around the adoption community it’s called “Adoption for All: The Fairness for Families Petition”. So after spending a few hours (not really but it felt like it) reading a bill off of my crack berry. Yes this was a bill; the Congress of the United States of America is trying to make it harder for families who have already spent up to 3 years waiting for their Chinese princess or other miracle baby. What since does that make? What kind of politician is attempting to make more money off already suffering and stressed out families? I have a guess but that would let my political view out of the bag. Oh alright maybe some loosey goosey democrat who’s views on the world doesn’t expand further then the piece of paper his speech is written on. Okay off my “soapbox” and back to the issue at hand. So after reading all about how these families should have been grandfathered in under the Hague Law, Congress decided no and now wants all new paperwork (1600A), home studies and more money. Go figure. A huge issue with this is that a large majority of these families are close to their LID date (log in date) with the country of adoption. These new information could take 6 months thus passing all these families, up what is unknown is if the home countries will honor the LID or push them back to the very end of the line. If that happens these families would start over this time behind 25,000 families.
If I believe then it shall be…Congress, honor the Hague Bill and let these families unite, it is already taking too long and too many babies are growing up in orphanages. If you agree, sign the petition let Congress know Family is Family even if it’s built on a dream and a thin red string. http://www.gopetition.com/petitions/adoptions-for-all.html

My childhood dreams!

So I have been thinking alot about my childhood dreams, things that I want to accomplish in my life. I found a diary from when I was 10-12 years old and here is what I found. Some sound silly and some are very serious.
1. I want to be a wife and mother. In that order and I understand that in this day in age this sounds very silly.
2. I want to graduate from college. Yes, I have already done this once but when I was little I wanted to be a lawyer so maybe I should just suck it up and go to law school.
3. I want to REALLY help someone. Go figure.
4. I want to learn to drive really fast. I wonder why I have had 2 major speading tickets.
5. I want to travel the world especially to Europe.
6. I want my family to always be happy and to always get together on Christmas Eve.
7. I'm going to save the world. Wow did I have big dreams.

So what were your childhood dreams?

1 book down millions to go.....

I finished "The 19th Wife" the book was okay but I defiantly would not give it 4 stars. That's what the book reviewer for People gave it. The book had lots of accurate Mormon history with a slight murder mystery aspect. Oh well, sometimes you find a good book and sometimes you find a bad one, too bad I was way excited for this one.

All in a days work.......

Restrained, sprayed, banged and sanged

(bad grammar, yes I know but oh so funny at 3am)

And this was our Thursday night it's amazing the things kids will do to get attention. I remember growing up and just wanting to have fun, know I was loved and survive to adulthood. Unlike the kids I work with.
Last night the kids were literly off the hook, I was called Satan's spawn, very cool. An officer was kicked a few times. A kid was pepper sprayed and then decided he would say sorry because he realized "damn that really did hurt." One kid thought he wouldn't get sprayed because the girl didn't get sprayed, 80lbs versus 210lbs, big difference. Another made threats that we were all going to be murdered should we ever enter her room. The F-word was used more then I ever thought possible. A kid tried to drink nasty deodorant only to find out that it would make her "poop" a lot because the second ingredient was Castor oil. Wow oh so funny. The 45 kids then proceeded to bang and sing in their rooms for hours because they were bored and mad.
So over all we restrained 2 kids 3 times, pepper spray was used 1 time, called poison control 1 time, called CFMG 3 times (they were no help), ended 1 mandatory program early, put the whole institution down 5 times, had to end 2 visit early 2 times and wrote 4 incident report to prove it all. Wow 2 kids can really throw a monkey wrench in a day.

Patriot Day, 2008

A Proclamation by the President of the United States of America

September 11, 2001, was etched into America's memory when 19 terrorists attacked us with barbarity unequaled in our history. On Patriot Day, we cherish the memory of the thousands of innocent victims lost, extend our thoughts and prayers to their families, and honor the heroic men and women who risked and sacrificed their lives so others might survive.
Since 9/11, we have recognized the threat posed by terrorists to the safety of the American people and worked to protect our homeland by fighting terrorists abroad. We are confronting terrorism by advancing freedom, liberty, and prosperity as an alternative to the ideologies of hatred and repression. Our Nation pays tribute to our courageous men and women in uniform serving around the world and the devoted members of our law enforcement, public safety, and intelligence communities at home who work night and day to protect us from harm and preserve the freedom of this great Nation.
Seven years ago, ordinary citizens rose to the challenge, united in prayer, and responded with extraordinary acts of courage, with some giving their lives for the country they loved. On Patriot Day, we remember all those who were taken from us in an instant and seek their lasting memorial in a safer and more hopeful world. We must not allow our resolve to be weakened by the passage of time. We will meet the test that history has given us and continue to fight to rid the world of terrorism and promote liberty around the globe.
By a joint resolution approved December 18, 2001 (Public Law 107-89), the Congress has designated September 11 of each year as "Patriot Day."
NOW, THEREFORE, I, GEORGE W. BUSH, President of the United States of America, do hereby proclaim September 11, 2008, as Patriot Day. I call upon the Governors of the United States and the Commonwealth of Puerto Rico, as well as appropriate officials of all units of government, to direct that the flag be flown at half-staff on Patriot Day. I also call upon the people of the United States to observe Patriot Day with appropriate ceremonies, activities, and remembrance services, to display the flag at half-staff from their homes on that day, and to observe a moment of silence beginning at 8:46 a.m. eastern daylight time to honor the innocent Americans and people from around the world who lost their lives as a result of the terrorist attacks of September 11, 2001.
IN WITNESS WHEREOF, I have hereunto set my hand this eighth day of September, in the year of our Lord two thousand eight, and of the Independence of the United States of America the two hundred and thirty-third.
GEORGE W. BUSH

One week down...

three weeks and five months left.
I hope I survive this whole graveyard thing, I guess I under-estimated my ability to sleep during the day, especially when my phone wont stop ringing even when it is just on vibrate. I guess people forget that I don't work "normal people" hours anymore. I forgot how hard it is to sleep during the day even with a night mask on and a few"simply sleepy" sleep aids. I will admit that I have had some fun on those graves, I have learned some new things, refreshed and then got faster at the booking processes and laughed so hard I almost peed my pants. I was introduced to amnesty hour yet again and god do people say some crazy things. Oh and I found out that its been proven that staying up for more then 10 hours straight at night is equal to being legally drunk thus I guess we cant be responsible for what we say. But those next five months will be hard especially if I get bored so I will find plenty to keep myself busy and wont be like the rest.

The uglyest word in the world....

So I got a phone call from my mom today and it was definitely not a good one. It was one of those phone calls that you know could happen and is always in the back of your head but you just keep going everyday hoping today is not the day. Well today was the day.... I was talking with my mom about last night and what chores I had to do today and then all the sudden out came, "Grandpa's cancer's back he found out Friday!" followed by, "Sarah, are you still there are you okay?" Well what do you say to that, no I'm not okay but I cant do any thing to fix it that's the doctors job. I'm angry because I found out over the phone and not in person, I'm angry because I've cried over the ugly C-word before and cant cry now, I'm angry because I saw it coming, I'm angry that my family has to go through this again and I'm angry because I cant fix it. Those of you that no me, "no my anger control skills did not work."
It was July 11th 6 years ago, my grandfather was diagnosed with multi-symptom myeloma which is basically leukemia for the elderly. Whats important about the date is that it is my uncles birthday his only remaining son. He battled this ugly disease for 2 years and went into remission on Valentines days. Well 4 years later we as a family begin our journey again, we walk the plank between life and death and hopefully we all make it relatively unscathed. All I have is trust in my family, our faith in the lord and his plan and trust in the medical field, together we maybe able to fight the ugly C-word yet again.