The uglyest word in the world....

So I got a phone call from my mom today and it was definitely not a good one. It was one of those phone calls that you know could happen and is always in the back of your head but you just keep going everyday hoping today is not the day. Well today was the day.... I was talking with my mom about last night and what chores I had to do today and then all the sudden out came, "Grandpa's cancer's back he found out Friday!" followed by, "Sarah, are you still there are you okay?" Well what do you say to that, no I'm not okay but I cant do any thing to fix it that's the doctors job. I'm angry because I found out over the phone and not in person, I'm angry because I've cried over the ugly C-word before and cant cry now, I'm angry because I saw it coming, I'm angry that my family has to go through this again and I'm angry because I cant fix it. Those of you that no me, "no my anger control skills did not work."
It was July 11th 6 years ago, my grandfather was diagnosed with multi-symptom myeloma which is basically leukemia for the elderly. Whats important about the date is that it is my uncles birthday his only remaining son. He battled this ugly disease for 2 years and went into remission on Valentines days. Well 4 years later we as a family begin our journey again, we walk the plank between life and death and hopefully we all make it relatively unscathed. All I have is trust in my family, our faith in the lord and his plan and trust in the medical field, together we maybe able to fight the ugly C-word yet again.